You tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
Before you say yes, get him angry. See him scared, see him wanting, see him sick. Stress changes a person. Find out if he drinks and if he does, get him drunk - you’ll learn more about his sober thoughts. Discover his addictions. See if he puts you in front of them. You can’t change people, baby girl. If they are made one way, it doesn’t just wear off. If you hate how he acts when he’s out of it now, you’re going to hate it much worse eight years down the road. You might love him to bits but it doesn’t change that some people just don’t fit.
inkskinned, “My father’s recipe for the man I should marry” (via partygirlmeltdown)
you never walked out at 2am
slamming the door
shaking the house
and my heart.
you never smashed a vodka bottle at my feet screaming i drink too much.
instead, you left like the calm before a storm,
and then a rush at the fall.
you were there and Jesus Christ then you were gone.
i stayed up for 6 days waiting to hear from you.
waiting for an explanation to your disappearance but i never heard from
you until i saw you in the Costco parking lot.
i dropped my eggs and the worker who kept looking at my ass ran over asking if i needed any help.
i ran over them on the way out and you called my name and
i cried on the way home.
im still waiting // 11:33pm (via cynicallys)